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July, You’re Here Already!?

Good morning beautiful people,

I have a backlogged of entries that I need to post up so be prepared for your wordpress reader and emails to be bombarded with what we did in the whole month of June after having our week of birthday parties and opening presents.

We had our coldest morning on Sunday to date, I think we went as low as 3 degrees and the cars were all frozen up. Ice was thick and frosty on the windscreens with wet ground and super cold air. That is as cold as it gets in good ol Auckland and I can’t imagine anything colder. I don’t know how you folks who live in colder places do it.

With the change of weather (we are expected to have a few more frosty mornings for a couple more weeks) baby has taken over my raspy cough and blocked nose. Poor bubs, except for sleeping time she is just as active and lovely albeit with buckets more of drool and mucus.

Gaby boy has been more clingy of late which is driving me crazy as I try to battle on with the sick baby. I do try to give him as much hugs and cuddles as he needs as he does seem more settle and less of a gorilla when I spend more time with him.

*I really must make a note to spend more one on one time with the twins. They are starting to act up more and I suspect this could be one way to combat their readed tantrums.

Speaking of tantrums…Ari had a massive on on Friday which continued on to Saturday and we only saw a hint of our beautiful cheery baby girl on Sunday afternoon.

As you can tell folks, this weekend just past was a loooooonnngggg one.

 

Happy Monday Peeps!

xx

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F is for Fat

Growing up in Malaysia ones appearance  was an issue everyone felt compelled to comment on. Most people wouldn’t think twice to let you know if you had gained weight, had a flat ass, boobs too big or too small, big legs, short legs, whether your hair cut suits you or not etc. Every well meaning family member, friends, members from church, colleagues and even the seller at the pasar malam (night market) would have something to say. 

I grew up being told that I’m pretty but lacked the desirable assets like a perky ass and boobs. I’m tall but it’s a pity about my chunky legs. My arms, functional but would be better if they were smaller. The hair, thick and healthy but pity it had some waves in it, better if it were just straight.

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The well meaning comments grew worse when I went back home from New Zealand after my exams.  “Aiyah, Audrey lose weight la! So sayang!” (so sayang literally means what a waste).  “Omg Audrey! What happened???” the best one was when I bumped into my ex at church and he just smirked and said “looking healthy”. I could have fired back “looking ugly”  but I just smiled and walked into church.

Most of the time people mean well. Most have seen me at my thinnest which to them equates to attractiveness and then BOOM! I gained a few kg and everyone acts like I became this obese beast or on my way to becoming obese so they rally and try to help me get back on the ‘right’ path. 

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For awhile it did bug me and I tried losing weight. Around 2 years ago, I would unconsciously avoid taking photos. I felt fat and unattractive. I didn’t feel right. Clothes just didn’t sit right on me anymore, sleeveless tops would always be accompanied by a jacket of some sort, I would often wear pants and long skirts to hide my legs (once a stranger commented that I had “veiny legs” while I walking in a mall), I would tie my hair in a bun as I thought it never looked good enough to be loose. There was just so many things I was unhappy about with myself. All that mixed with the voices of other people’s disapproval just made me not like myself. There was always something that needed fixing.

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I read somewhere that children especially girls learn positive body image from their parents. That got me thinking. What sort of image am I sending to my kids by not actively being with them in photos? What message am I sending them when I insist on wearing a jacket with my sleeveless tops even though its really warm outside? What message am I sending by being uncomfortable in my swimsuit when we go to the beach? What message am I sending them when they see me unable to take a compliment about my looks?

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I wanted to change. I wanted to feel like I owned my own body. I didn’t like how I let my self worth and self esteem be dictated by other people. The first step towards self acceptance was to accept that if I felt fabulous, than I WAS fabulous!

It’s ironic, I only started to love myself more after I became a mother. Now, I am bigger then I have ever been before, my stomach is riddled with
stretch marks, saggy skin where firm flesh use to be.  Stretch marks everywhere from under my arms, to my breasts, legs and even around my pelvis.

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I decided to just let it be, to love and enjoy myself. If I lose weight fine and if I don’t that’s ok too. For too long I have let other people’s opinions become my inner voice. Now, my voice shall be my navigator and it’s saying I am fat but I am also fucking fabulous.

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Till then

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The Liebster Award

 

A shout out to  Mommy Out Numbered for nominating my blog for this award. Thanks for for the tag and I really do appreciate your support ❤

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“The Liebster award is an award given to bloggers by other bloggers! It has German origins and has several definitions: dearest, lovely, pleasant, and valued, among many others. This award is a great way to make connections with fellow bloggers, and support new blogs or blogs with less than 1,000 followers!”

 

I started my blog when I met my boyfriend who had an ex girlfriend who was a well known blogger. It opened up a new world to me and I was really fascinated with the idea of keeping a public diary out in the world wide web. The blog started in 20six and I migrated to WordPress and have haphazardly updated it through out the years. 12 years down the road I have rekindled my love for blogging especially now after having the almost 3 year old twins and my 7 month old baby girl. This blog is a good place to share my thoughts and experiences with the children, I do worry about online predators with the sharing of photos of my children here but at the same time I do not want to let my fear and other assholes rule what I do with my life especially on a medium that has been wonderful to use so far.

I would like to nominate the blogs below and spread the love and kindness:

Where in the life

The Joy of 3 Boys

A Style Collector

Papams

Working Mummy Chronicles

Little Blue Living

Random Bits of Trial and Error

 

HA! So, let’s get straight into answering the questions posted by  Mommy Out Numbered

1. Where would you like to travel?

    I really want to visit Japan and Disneyland ( I will forever be a kid at heart)

2. What does your name / blog name mean?

My blog name was created by my husband and it can either mean Miss Sabah Audrey Chong (which was a pageant I won when I was too young) or Ms Audrey Chong

3. What is your recent passion?

Succulents!

4. What is your favotite TV shows?

I don’t watch tv but when I do it would usually have something to do with DIY or Home Renovations

5. Which subject were you good with in school?

English

6. What type of food do you like?

Desserts (because seriously life would be nothing without desserts)

7. Dog person or Cat person?

Hmm, I seriously want a cat but no one else in the house wants em so I guess I will never know if I am a cat person or not.

8. Do you blog on your phone, tablet, laptop, or computer?

I mostly blog on my phone

9. What is your next home project?

Good question! My next home project will be a fish pond after we complete our container succulent fountain garden.

10. What is your favourite night time snack?

hmm, don’t snack at night

11. What form of exercise do you prefer?

Dancing!

 

 

10 Random facts about myself:

1. I am trying to grow my hair long (it is taking ages)

2. It took me two years to grow out my eyebrows

3. I am loud and boisterous and seriously love to swear

4. I graduated from AUT with a Communications degree (utterly useless tbh)

5. I have two Samoyeds and their names are Kaia and Murphy

6. I love reading magazines about home and garden

7. I am trying to grow old with class but just keep getting crass-ier?

8.  I am hooked on planting and propagating succulents after I saw some photos on Instagram about them

9. I told my husband I want 4 kids but secretly want 6

10. I used to join beauty pageants and won first runner up in Miss Malaysia/World

 

If you decide to do this tag, please answer these questions below.

  1. What inspires you to blog?
  2. What are you currently passionate about?
  3. What are you currently reading?
  4. What is a handy beauty trick you like to use?
  5. What would you do with $5000?
  6. Lip gloss or Lipstick? Why?
  7. Would you match your outfit with your kids or partner?
  8. What can’t you live without?
  9. Do you have a Facebook page for you blog? What is it?
  10. How would you define your style? Be it fashion, parenting, etc.

 

Can’t wait to read your answers 🙂

 

 

 

THE OFFICIAL RULES OF THE LIEBSTER AWARD

  • Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.
  • Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)
  • Answer 11 questions from the Blogger that nominated you.
  • Provide 10 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1,000 followers.
  • Ask your nominees to answer 11 questions.
  • List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) Once you have written and published it, you then have to:
    • Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so they can learn about it and know what to do! (they might not have ever heard of it!)
    • Post your Liebster Award blog post link in the comments of your nominator’s Liebster Award Post!

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Skipping naps for an early night with twins

Yes, we have been trying to skip the twins afternoon naps and stretch the day till about 6.30pm where they will collapse on the bed in exhaustion and sleep till at least 6am the next day.

This was us at 2.30am yesterday.

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Yes, we are definitely right on the money with the snacking, I mean sleeping.

Lol.

Till then

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Taking it one day at a time

Ever since I had children I feel as if time has been whizzing by. It could be due to us always chasing the time. Chasing that nap time, chasing snack time, bath time, play time, cuddle time, tantrum time. With children, even if I don’t have a set schedule we are always racing to do the next thing.

Today, is our second day of the twins being in bed before 7pm. Yesterday, it happened by coincidence since both had skipped their afternoon nap. We wanted to replicate that today and the only way to do that was to ensure they were occupied all the way to 5pm.

After our dance at C3 we went home to do some painting and then shoot off to the playground to beat their sleepiness. The day was beautiful, I had laid out the mat for baby and just couldn’t resist lying down and Ari joined me.

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I can’t remember when was the last time I looked up at the sky, watching clouds roll by.  It was good, I felt energized and peaceful. Baby gurgling beside us as we tried to figure out what the clouds resembled like.
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I forgot that I need this. I just need to stop and breathe. Let it all wash over me and start again. When things get tough I just need to remind myself to take it one day at a time.

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Till then

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Succulent madness

I have not been blogging or studying for the last 4 days as I have just been bitten by the succulent bug.

I went plant shopping on Wednesday and Thursday and was digging and planting on both days. Shoveling dirt, moving stones, carefully transplanting the plants. My only regret is not getting a bag of potting mix as I didn’t know my soil was clayish at the bottom 😕

Here are some photos from yesterday. Photos of the actual garden will be uploaded another day as I went straight from gardening to the bed yesterday.

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Spot the boy and his doll. Taken while waiting for our lunch on Wednesday

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Look at how happy I was!

Good thing I brought a hat with me yesterday. It was overcast in the morning but got pretty sunny by the time I reached the nursery. Oh my goodness! I totally looooovvveeee this nursery. The owners name is Jody and she had some new stock that was so beautiful I really love the quirky stuff and some of the plants were really unusual and a lot of colour (two of my favourite things!). They are out West and are totally worth the drive. If you are interested check out Wairere Nursery. When I arrived she passed me this awesome little booklet of the core range that she stocks. Along with succulents she has bromeliads and aloe and a few more plants which I didn’t take notice of.

Jody is so knowledgeable and we drove around her nursery in her van which made me feel totally legit as a beginner farmer enthuasist. It also reminded me of my families old pajero back home in Malaysia.

Here is some of her stock (I really should have taken more photos).

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Look at that all shoooooo pwettty!

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Aerial view of what has been done so far

I’m hoping to create a little enchanted forest of succulents here. Definitely will try propagating what I have and make thousands of little baby succys (MUAHAHAHAHA).

Next post will have more detail on what I got and I manage to get Jody to give me two of her plants which weren’t for sale. Yeahyur!

Till then

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I am in a lot of pain

I haven’t’ had a decent exercise in three years on Saturday I went along to a new launch for Les Mills group fitness with Nette. Gjin was leading the class with two other instructors and it was a mean as work out. After Gjin set with the lunges (which felt so good btw)I put down the weight and then felt really dizzy and nauseous. I had to go outside for a while to the toilet to just clear my head.

After BodyPump with Gjin we waited for the next class called Sh’Bam which I have never taken and it was a lot of fun. Granted I was like a wooden stick through most the moves but I definitely enjoyed it more.

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The beautiful and incredibly fit Gjin, after instructing this class she did the next one which was BodyCombat!!! p/s She has an 14 month old babty too.

Yesterday, my muscles were sore. Now, I am definitely in a lot of pain. This is comparable to the one boxing session I had with Ronald which made going up and down my stairs excruciating (he has classes every Monday and Wednesday and if you are keen message me and I will pass on his details). The only difference is that with Ronald the soreness was in my thighs and ass, this time its my whole body especially my upper body. Nette, I can’t believe you said you only have a slight soreness! Now my plans to go boxing today are put back on the back burner, lol unless I woman up and just go…but oooohhhh the paiinnnnnn, the painnnnnnn :p

At the end Sh’Bam we took a group photo and I took this opportunity to push up all my lunok (fats) up so that I have a visual of what  I look now and how I will look like in the coming months. Lets see if there will be a difference to my baby mummy body.

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Dripping in sweat. 3 years worth.

Photos were taken from Gjin and my own

“Every journey begins with a single step but you will never finish if you never start” – hahaha on this quote, I don’t know how many first steps I have done and yet to complete but let’s see how this year will go eh?

Till Then

 

 

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